Circus Hop

"So, sing along, it's such a silly song"

About

Circus Hop is a song released by YonKaGor on July 19th, 2020. The song is notable for its happy sounding instrumentals juxtaposed with its dark and depressing lyrics. The main character featured in the video is Clownfish, as well as Vince, Jazz, and March as background characters.

Lyrics

It's a comical yet devastating universe But it's still the kind of universe that I deserve The lipstick on my face has bled into my skin It should show a grin Up from the sky, I won't want you to cry So here's an act for everyone to sneer at So sing along, it's such a silly song The cackling carousel, it spins and never stops The acrobat who's waiting at the top Should do a circus hop! I shall now accept the fact that I'm a failure (You're a failure) 'Cause I'm still afraid the future might be scarier (It is scarier) I'll slip while having fun and cut off my own tongue They'll think I was dumb! Up from the sky, I won't want you to cry So here's an act for everyone to sneer at So sing along, it's such a silly song The cackling carousel, it spins and never stops The acrobat who's waiting at the top Should do a circus hop! I've said goodbye, I don't want you to cry So have a laugh with everyone but me So sing along, it's such a silly song The cackling carousel, it spins and never stops The acrobat who fell off from the top They did a little drop! So sing along, it's such a silly song The cackling carousel, it spins and never stops The acrobat who's waiting at the top Should do a circus hop!

Meaning

Circus Hop is about the neglect of mental health in the Eastern schooling system.^[1] Circus Hop depicts a crazed, fanatic character being bullied and eventually being pushed to commit suicide. The pre-chorus is from the perspective of people who actually care, while the line "The acrobat who's waiting at the top / Should do a circus hop" is a quote from the bullies.^[2]^[3]

Trivia

The fish featured in the MV are orange clownfish, bluespine unicornfish, and flying fish.^[4]
During the production of Circus Hop, YonKaGor would have frequent nightmare of students and teachers telling them to kill themself. These have stopped after the production.^[5]
Throughout the video, secret messages are hidden in the typography and background. These hidden messages are:

"hi this is Jon I love Mello so much. I also love other people I have fun talking to them and even if I end up forgetting them one day, I hope they know that right now, I'm enjoying the time I spend with them"
"Sing along, it's such a silly song. The cackling carousel, it spins and never stops. The acrobat who's waiting at the top should do a circus hop."
"I shall now accept the fact that I'm a failure. Because I'm still afraid the future might be scarier. I'll slip while having fun, and cut off my own tongue. They'll think I was dumb."
"How about bwekh? Does "bwekh" mean anything to the conversation? indeed. i n t e r e s t i n g question"
"Sometimes I wish I was dead but the world just keeps turning and turning and turning and turning and turning and turning and turning"
"JonKaGor is Non-binary confirmed!!!"
"Please forgive my leaking eyes. Please don't spoil my paradise. Holding onto hope shattered by the one who broke my life. And I'm crafting paper alibis, 'cause I'm too weak for real goodbyes. Waiting to be torn in two, 'cause I could not tell the truth."
"Someone reuploaded the full version of the fish song but honestly I don't mind that much that they reuploaded a full version and they credited me for it"

At 1:58 in the MV, a small ( °<° ) (Also known as "Bwekh") can be found briefly in the corner.
During the chorus, Clownfish's expression grows increasingly more deranged.

During the 1st chorus, their expression is happy, their smiling with blush and glint in their eyes.
During the 2nd chorus, they lose the blush and glint.
During the 3rd chorus, their face is covered more in shadow, their eyes drawn scratchy with a stretched, forced smile.

Circus Hop was one of YonKaGor's older songs (older than I Forgot That You Exist^[6]) and was almost cancelled^[7], but was rewritten for the release.
The title of "Circus Hop" was somewhat inspired by one of Yon's friends calling their music "circus pop".^[8]
This is the 3rd YonKaGor song to not be in 4/4 (partially), those being Artificial Abandonment, Dandelion, Circus Hop (partially), You'll Be Gone (partially), and I Still Create in chronological order.